And now -- suddenly, it feels like I'm finally opening my eyes to a whole world outside of this little bubble that was beginning to feel a little too claustrophobic. Like, I'm finally taking a breath of fresh air after being locked up in a little black room. I don't know, I just feel so wonderful now. Like, I know what I want to do. And I have a ton of SUPPORT which I was seriously lacking before. There are people who like the same things I do. I just can't even explain this, it reminds me of a time way back in 6th grade, when I found something so real for the first time. Now, I'm getting to re-live that experience, but it's like -- better?
This probably isn't making sense to any of you, and it's not really supposed to XD I'm just posting this right now to let everyone know that if I've been looking "depressed" lately -- cause that's what people have been telling me -- well let's just say that chick is dead & gone and I am now full of life & ready to live it up & be happy. I'm sick of moping around over something that was completely in my control. Now that I've taken action, I feel like myself again. The real me.
Yours truly,
Raissa
Raissa
P.S -- I think there was a misunderstanding up there, when I said I was feeling lost & all that stuff, I was blaming people. But then some folks confronted me about it and I guess they were right IT'S MY FAULT I WAS FEELING THAT WAY. Okay, sure. My fault. I don't mind getting that blame -- it's my fault I felt like I wasn't getting the support I wanted & it was my fault I was feeling out of place & it was my fault I was feeling horribly suffocated. Yup, that's right. So let me just clarify that the "people" so to speak that I THOUGHT were making me feel like that are actually perfect. It's not them it's me. (:
"happiness." that's a word i thought i had lost the meaning of for a while. it's so good to experience it again.
ReplyDeleteand i LOVE YOU for being a part of the reason it's back. <3
Im really happy for you =]
ReplyDeleteIm glad you're happy again.
Im pretty much always (atleast a little) happy, but im also becoming hapier, i tinik it's because weather is going from dead and depressing to alive and happy.
It's Awesome, I've also found a few new activities i like, and everything is better.
lol gena = nerd
ReplyDeletebut Im glad you're happy too xD
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sUUHNf0S5cA
oh hayzzzzz.
ReplyDeletei really am happy your happy [:
woooohooooo .
<3
raiiii.<3
ReplyDeleteyou're truly amazing.
glad to hear about your happiness(:
loveeyaaa xo.